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13 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: holy spirit, new covenant, prophetic words
So after neglecting my blog for… two-thirds of one year. Wow. That’s a long time. I’ve actually “changed ages”. lol.
So. I was “struck’ by the urge to… blog. Actually I’d just been writing something… and it occurred to me to post something on my blog. 
. I know, I know, you, dear indulgent reader, are beyond thrilled to FINALLY see SOMETHING from me! In fact, you would totally hug me now, if you could… okay I’ll stop now. lol.
Are you wondering why I don’t sound slightly depressed? Because… unfortunately, many of my older posts were written when I was in… the bathos. Unfortunately… I have had this tendency to be quite the emotional yo-yo. And I’m hopefully maturing out of it. Hopefully.
So. I have enjoyed a half-year of being taught by Lord Holy Spirit Himself (or at least, coming to realize I was being taught by Him). Okay… I don’t think I know Him that well. But He is rather cool.
I’ve FINALLY begun to learn… the basics of the New Covenant. The stuff in Romans, Galatians, Colossians, Hebrews… I think it is SOOO cool that He has done EVERYTHING… and I no longer have to carry around the weight of sin-consciousness. EVERYTHING I hear or learn is submitted to the Holy Spirit… and He helps me sift, and discern, and cling to what is good… A problem I’m having is, well, prophetic words that sound “Old Covenant”, that make me go “huh? is that You? teach Thou me, i pray Thee, for Thy daughter does not yet understand, and is, she fears, slow of hearing…” Okay I don’t talk like that. Duh. lol.
So… about 2 seasons ago, I went through what I would,in hindsight, call preparation for the preparation that I am currently undergoing. 
. I know, that sounded odd.
So, in those days, I was fasting… quite often. And I’m afraid I was the Epitome of the Long-Faced Fasting Person. Certain friends of mine could always tell that I was fasting. I was physically weak, and I complained to God… and from time to time I had bad breath. Apparently in those days, I was being prepared for… whatever I’m going through now.
In these days… I have noticed a greater depth of understanding of the written Word. I know He gave it. If I’m boasting… it’s in Him, and His gift, and His goodness in giving to me. It is so cool, to have God be like “yeah, I’ma teach you”… at this point I don’t really trust people anymore, and I hate bad doctrine… maybe because a lot of it (all of it?) is demonic. If you’re beginning to lift an eyebrow… it’s not arrogance. ”Let God be true…”
One example… in the choir we were doing this “jammin’” song, “The Blessing of Abraham”. And one night, when I cam home after practice, He taught me about it. ^_^. I think it’ll be really cool, when we’re all together in the Kingdom, and Abraham finally gets to meet all his children, after cheering for us with the other witnesses… i wonder if he knew he’d have black kids.
So now I’m a little imbalanced in favour of the NT (I used to read mostly the OT… not so much these days)… and I’m hoping to learn how to see Jesus in the OT… and interprete the OT in light of the finished work of the Cross.
I realize that a lot of what I’ve been learning is actually really basic stuff, that’s about as clearly spelled out in the Bible as the Holy Spirit could manage, lol. But a lot of Christians don’t know it. And I still haven’t heard it preached from any pulpit in a church service that I was actually present at. The first time I SAW Romans… I was stunned. I went, “But People Don’t Know This!” Some of us have been in the Kingdom for years… and don’t know “the basics”. Sad. And it can be… not-so-encouraging when people don’t accept the truth because, well, they’ve believed “such-and-such” their whole lives.
And then having to stay humble and teachable… and knowing that I am taught so I can teach. :/.
So. On the flip side. This season, I have finally begun to understand concepts like “trial” and “affliction”. lol. God said He was training me and I went “okay, cool”. Then later… I began to wonder why the “ordeal’ lasted as long as it… has. (It ain’t ova’, yo. lol.) Now? Focusing on Jesus hasn’t been easy. In fact a lot of the time, I… haven’t. (I am confessing my sins to you, that I may be healed. lol.)
And I have to admit that… He has never failed. Duh. Last week, He “opened up” Romans 8 a little, so I could see it better. The ”take-home message”? I can’t lose. God is on my side… and He always tips the scale. . It’s funny… I semi-arrived at that conclusion when I was looking at Jesus in Rev 19… but He is always kind enough to remind me when I forget. btw, ALWAYS KEEP A JOURNAL. Write down EVERYTHING you learn. Hab 2:2.
So. I think it’s “cool” how every one of us goes through our own “custom-made” trials… all different, but the same basic format and layout. lol. Our ”heroes of faith” all had “prototypes” of what to expect… on Saturday, two friends of mine agreed that ”when you think it can’t get any worse… it does.” But… our temporary, light afflictions, prepare for us an eternal weight of glory beyond comparison… 2 Cor 5, and other scriptures about “trial”, “affliction” , “endurance” and related terms, came alive to me like never before.
And while God never tempts, He is faithful, and will not allow…
And no temptation will ever “take” you except what is common to man…
And if you ask, He’ll give you wisdom…
And no matter how bad it gets, you won’t break , because God is Bawss. 2 cor 5. lol.
And you will probably go through your trial “alone”, i.e. other human beings might be aware that you’re “going through”… but it’s your trial, not theirs. Of course He is with you… and He is [more than] enough. (Think Jesus in the wilderness… and in Gethsemane.)
(*in Psalm 55:7-8, it would seem that the wilderness is… a good place to be. Well if He says it I believe it. lol.)
I often joke that a trial can’t last more than 40 years (seriously, it’s totally biblical… ) But I really don’t want mine to last that long. LOL. (I can’t even imagine being that age. I stand on His Word, that He renews my youth like the eagle’s. Therefore I will not age. I, as a son of God, am not subject to the elements and laws of the universe… I have died to them, and I live to Him. I will not age. I believe it, and so it will be to me, to the glory of God. )
I think this blog post has actually been me encouraging myself in the LORD… I actually have better perspective now than I had, say, 3 hours ago.
I want to see how this will all work out… how He will show Himself mighty in my midst… the God of peace will soon crush Satan under my feet.
Oh. I wanted to mention. Did you know the word for “receive” actually means “take/lay hold of’? In our Kingdom, receiving is not a passive action… through faith, we lay hold of the promises…
I love how I actually get revelation when I’m busy digging around in etymology… e.g. the word “eidolatria” and Psalm 106:20/ Rom 1:23…
Eph 3:14-19 over you in Jesus’ Name. Amen.
So if you have the odd prayer request… send it in.
